I Am That, I am

An original painting also by me
DC URBAN PIXIE
Title: Burnt Sienna
Acrylic Painting to 11x14 Canvas

GRACE and SERENITY
By T Marie Mason-Nolan (DC Urban Pixie)

Today I was thinking, today I was observing
The people, the sounds, the office, my surroundings
In my personal musings, I pointed
I pointed to people places and things and in this moment a phrase 

A phrase repeated itself over and over
"I am that, I am"
I pointed to the sidewalk, to a child, to a tree
And in that moment I pondered over the beautiful God or higher being 
that made me
I realized there was no above and below
But rather an inside, outside, and all around.
It was then another phrase burst through to my conscious from my subconscious
"I found God in myself, and I loved her, I loved her fiercely."

These words may not mean much to you 
But as for me, they mean everything
They help me to realize the beauty in myself and all that surrounds me
They help me reach a state of grace
A state of....Serenity

and so I share another poem today from "For Colored Girls who have considered suicide when the rainbow is enuf"

Enjoy and leave your thoughts.



A Laying on of Hands 
from "for colored girls who have considered suicide | when the rainbow is enuf"
by Ntozake Shange

i waz missing somethin
somethin so important
somethin promised
a layin on of hands
fingers near my forehead
strong
cool
movin
makin me whole
sense pure
all the gods comin into me
layin me open to myself
i waz missing somethin
somethin promised
somethin free
a layin on of hands
i know bout/layin on bodies/layin outta man
bringin him alla my fleshy self & some of my pleasure
bein taken full eager wet like i get sometimes
i waz missing somethin
a layin on of hands
not a man
layin on
not my mama/holdin me tight/sayin
i'm laways gonna be her girl
not a layin on of bosom and womb
a layin on of hands
the holiness of myself released

i sat up one nite walkin a boardin house
screamin/cryin/the ghost of another woman
who waz missin what i waz missin
i wanted to jump up outta my bones
& be done wit myself
leave me alone
& go on in the wind
it waz too much
i fell into a numbness
til the only tree i cd see
took me up in her branches
held me in the breeze
made me dawn dew
that chill at daybreak
the sun wrapped me up swingin rose light everywhere
the sky laid over me like a million men
i waz cold/i waz burnin up/a child
& endlessly weavin garments for the moon
wit my tears
i found god in myself
& i loved her/i loved her fiercely