Yikes....where has the time gone??

 How goes it? As they used to say...

How is it already 2023?! Life has gone by in such a flash, I scarcely know where to begin. Every time in the past that I have taken a hiatus, I have made what feels like empty promises to myself and whoever used to read/follow my postings here. Now, I have more time on my hands that there are no excuses. 

I will simply state that I will endeavor to post here again on a more regular basis. Not sure what I will post other than my personal musings and occasional artwork...I have been in a bit of a creative slump for sometime and I am only beginning to wake up again and revisit my creativity, art, and imagination. 

I am working on a novel...though who knows if I will finish it, let alone if anyone will read it. I am married, I moved to a new area, I have changed jobs, and I learned about TikTok and how much time it can consume and steal from you if you're not using it for anything other than mindless scrolling haha.

I am marinating on artwork I want to accomplish but every time I look at a canvas, I feel a pang of fear. I often wrestle, much like other creatives, with the fear of not being good enough. this is probably why a lot of my artistic attempt end up dying on the vine. I have also spent a great deal of time worried about what others think of me and often not accepting myself. I have dedicated many hours of my life and energy to that which serves others while letting my dreams die and dissipate. 

I started this blog nearly 11 years ago with the thought in mind that my artwork would set me free from a prison I perceived I was in at the time. It has taken me that long to realize I had the keys all along and now that I have the freedom I once desired, I feel like I don't know what to do with it. I a currently pursing another dream, one that requires a lot of brain space, discipline, and dedication. I have never felt happier about a decision than this one. 

I realize that life is not a competition, I am on my own journey and while I may look back and think I should have done this sooner, in my maturity, I realize things happen precisely when they are meant to. They happen when you are ready, and I am ready.

I will set a reminder to myself to start posting here once again. I may not engage in a lot of social media anymore but I do need an outlet of sorts. This seems as good as any.

Thank you for reading and thank you for understanding.