Lost and Found

I had reached a point both with my mother and my son where our relationships looked like they had reached states that were beyond repair. Terrible fights, tears, sleepless nights and all of the things that seemed like the makings of the end of anything good that could exist between two or more people. 

Just when you think its over...it isn't.

Thank goodness that statement is so true!

Its a lesson I have learned several different times in my life both in those bigger circumstances as well as the small.

Today, I am going to address the small first and then I will address the big.

This weekend I lost something precious, in a manner of speaking, my purse. If you're not familiar, a purse contains a woman's entire life and thensome! It's not a joke for that to go missing.


So here I was dealing with the cancellation of cards and my phone and the like just yesterday and then just today, even though I was on the edge of hopelessness, I got the urge to call the place I lost it just one more time.

I legitimately thought it was over, no more cards, no more phone, no more memories my phone contained. Just done.

But that phrase, the one that has played out in my life in so many ways just keeps coming up. It wasn't over, someone had been kind enough to turn it in, minus my cash. They can keep the cash if that's the cost of having an important part of my life back.

I am lucky and again, just when you think it's over...it isn't.

There have been times when I thought my relationships were over too both familial as well as romantic.


Then there was the year and a half where I completely stopped all verbal communication with one of my family members because of how they treated my mother. Immature yes and so be it. I thought I was done with this individual but sure enough things are on a more positive note now with them.

Thank goodness familial bonds are stronger than that. There is at least one relationship I would desire to be healed in that category but only time will tell.

Then there was the time when it was romantically related. There was a guy I dated a long time back who I felt had taken advantage of me at a very vulnerable, stressful, and sad time in my life. I was angry and cut him as well as a mutual friend completely out of my life. I thought it was over and that was that.

Two years pass...yes, I said two.

Out of no where I get a message from this guy complete with a long apology. He and I ended up dating again after that for a while, and sure enough as the phrase says Just when you think it's over...it isnt, there it was staring me in the face. He is now one of my better friends, go figure.

Then, there were the times when I had lost my faith. I lost my faith in myself, in my future, in everything. It was gone. I will not go into too much detail here because that is a part I do not wish to revisit. "Don't let your past spoil your present."

I was thinking on this the other day when I was listening to 95.1 and they were playing the song Amazing Grace. That was one of those days where I just felt like a door opened inside and let all the sunshine flow right into me and through me. Faith restored I felt more positive and could see my future as vividly as a remembered dream.
I guess that's why when the small things, like losing my purse, occur I tend to be pretty optimistic. Nothing is ever completely gone or lost, it is just simply misplaced if you will. No relationship ever really ends because if one really looks at it, the situation has just become a bad or negative relationship but...the relationship still exists.

That's my thought for the day, and thank you thank you thank you for all that belongs to me coming back to me. Just wow! :)

"Just when you think it's over...it isn't."